Twice as Much
by Linda Ellis copyright 2012
I have felt the pain of heartache
in the days since you have passed
and never again will I take for granted
how long a life will last...
Each lifetime has a limit
from the date of its creation.
We only choose our life’s direction,
not its beginning...or duration.
You lived and loved a lifetime
within the years that you were blessed,
and I mourn, because without you,
I now must live the rest.
It is I who suffer;
I who grieve.
You are gone, and now content.
And if you could,
I know you would
erase these tears I’ve spent.
It is I who loved so deeply
and so much of me, is you...
that when you left this earthly place,
a part of me left, too.
Though our hearts are joined forever,
linked by invisible chains,
the time has come for me to see
that much of "me" remains.
Every day you’re in my head.
Every day you’re in my heart.
Every morning through day’s end,
you occupy a part.
We walked this earth together;
our lives are intertwined...
so I shall live this life I have
as two lifetimes...combined.
Twice as long, I’ll gaze at sunsets.
Twice as many times, I’ll laugh.
Twice as hard, I’ll seize these moments
I now live on your behalf.
Twice as deeply, I will care.
Twice as tough, I'll bear the sorrow.
Twice as real I’ll live each day
and thank God twice for each tomorrow.
Twice as strong I’ll smell the roses.
Twice this vow, I will renew:
Until we meet again one day,
Twice As Much, I’ll Live For You...
Linda Ellis
Copyright 2012

such a blessing and a gentle touch of healing toward broken hearts such as mine and so many many others! Thank you Linda for your pursuit of giving hope love and blessings in your beautiful poems TWICE AS MUCH is taped on every wall of my house to remind me to LIVE for myself and my son ALLEN TODD SHORT 8/16/88 - 3/30/2006
Posted by: Terri Short | March 23, 2012 at 11:29 PM
God has blessed you with a God given talent and you sure haven't disappointed him. Thank you for sharing your talent in the form of words with us. And again thank you for thinking of my dear sweet friend, Gail Blanton when writing the poem Twice as Much. She is such an inspiration and strong loving person.
Posted by: Linda P. Jernigan | February 12, 2012 at 09:15 PM